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burn out the day, burn out the night

i cant see no reason to put up a fight
but im burnin, im burnin, im burnin for you

i love the blue oyster cult!!
so yea, mostly just another post to keep my lj. one of these days though, im going to download it and remove it. and then none of you will ever see it again. and you'll be sorry.

"oh my god a chair!"
-"im mad!"

hahahaha. just like the boondocks teaches us, if you ever want to start a fight in a crowd, just throw a chair. then bam. instant riot.
so im having a pretty good time. im trying ever so fevrently to win some duck eggs on ebay, so i can hatch them and then i can be a mommy. theyre so cute and pretty! i hope i win. :)
im supposed to chill with holly and terrarist today, so i hope that works. who knows tho. we'll just have to see how it goes. i wish we had the net at my house tho, so i dont have to go somewhere else. its fuckin dumb.
well hopefully the next time you hear from me, i'll be the proud mother of a flock of the prettiest green ducks you've ever seen.

Anger he smiles, towering in shiny metallic purple armour
Queen Jealousy, envy waits behind him
Her fiery green gown sneers at the grassy ground

Blue are the life-giving waters taken for granted,
They quietly understand
Once happy turquoise armies lay opposite ready,
But wonder why the fight is on

But they're all bold as love, yes, they're all bold as love
Yeah, they're all bold as love
Just ask the axis

My red is so confident that he flashes trophies of war and
ribbons of euphoria
Orange is young, full of daring,
But very unsteady for the first go round
My yellow in this case is not so mellow
In fact I'm trying to say it's frigthened like me
And all these emotions of mine keep holding me from, eh,
Giving my life to a rainbow like you
But, I'm eh , yeah, I'm bold as love
Yeah, yeah
Well I'm bold, bold as love (hear me talking, girl)
I'm bold as love
Just ask the axis (he knows everything)
Yeah, yeah, yeah

i fucking love jimi hendrix. hes brilliant.


ahahahahaha. i love that episode of the boondocks. what a terrific show.
so im at my dads again. its pretty cool. were gonna have turkey for dinner next monday at the rate we're going tho...
hm. i wish we had the internet at home, cause stupid skool internet is dumb.

"now how's a nigga gonna borrow a fry?"
where are your 'nocs?!

i fuckin love the professor bros. and baby cakes. you know what, fuck that, i love brad neely. what a clever ass.

sometimes i feel that this world is owned by devils. and that my family belongs to some other me....fakey cakes.

I was blown away
What could I say
It all seemed to make sense
You've taken away everything
And I can't deal with that.

I try to see the good in life
but good things in life are hard to find
We'll blow it away, blow it away
Can we make this something good?

Well I'll try to do it right this time around
Let's start over
Try to do it right this time around
It's not over
Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground
This love is killin me
But you're the only one
It's not over

I've taken all I can take
And I cannot wait
We're wastin too much time
Bein strong, holdin on
Can't let it bring us down

My life with you means everything
So I won't give up that easily
I'll blow it away, blow it away
Can we make this something good?
Cause it's all misunderstood

Well I'll try to do it right this time around
Let's start over
Try to do it right this time around
It's not over
Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground
This love is killin me
But you're the only one
It's not over

We can't let this get away
Let it out, let it out
Don't get caught up in yourself
Let it out

Let's start over
We'll try to do to it right this time around
It's not over
Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killin me
But you're the only one
It's not over

Let's start over
It's not over, yeah...
This love is killin me
But you're the only one
It's not over

fire on the ice, its proof of the prize

man its been forever since ive written in here. i just work, got to class and sleep. i dont really do much of anything. i hope christopher comes home in time for us to go see 300. that looks like its a pretty good movie. lets see....i hate my job and want to find a new one. im tired of that rotten little chinese resturaunt. although the food is really good :) and i really should be working on my papers, but i cant wanna. im all typed out. maybe ill skip class again tomorrow. im still kind of sick, thanks to my wonderful boyfriend.
im in class right now, and i just finished my final project. i hope it went ok.
i cant wait until the end of the semester. im real excited for next semester to start...and im even more excited for the break that comes in between.
i cant think of anything to say right now

no you cannot still read parade!!!

wow, i havent written in here in forever. it was my birthday yesterday. it was pretty good, except afew things that didnt go right. but im 19 now. so i guess thats cool.
i have been up to absolutly nothing. ive been christmas shopping lately, and im pretty much all done.
im so sick of ryan though. hes such an asshole, and he doesnt even care. but he wants me to care enough to be nice to him. argh. he couldnt even be pleasant for my birthday, hes such an ass. things with chris and i have never been better though. i love living with him :)

much afraid

you're cold that way
and thats why you say the things that you say
you can't attract
the things that you lack
you're trying in vain

Try to climb a broken ladder
Grip the missing rungs
And fall down down down down
Seems some time ago you said
This wouldn't last
And now you sit here crying, yeah

i wish i could just be happy all the time. cause when i get sad, i feel like i do when i used to be depressed. its like i plummet from the high of being happy to just feeling awful. right now i just feel like no one really appreciates me...just kind of like im here to pick up messes and anything that else that my wonderful boys need me to do. but hey, its not like i didnt know what was coming. i signed a piece of paper saying that i am in full awareness of what this apartment means, and that i'll live around it for the next year.
so long sweet summer
i fell into you, now you're gracefully falling away

i love this time of the year. there's just something about indian summer that makes everything feel...in rhythem. its like the gentle bridge that drops from summer's high into the crispness of autumn. i feel like im about to be going back to regular school, but im going to college instead. sometimes i used to fear this time of year just because of that. but not this year. im realy excited to see what things are going to be like in the future. im happy to see fall coming. i dont think what happend last fall will be happening anymore. im really happy where i am right now. i'm really happy. when we first moved in, i think everyone just needed to adjust to the newness of it all. but now its really begining to feel like home. it makes me really, truely incredibly happy to be living here with chris and ryan. just the fact that chris and i live together...it makes me really happy to be with him. i like the idea of us sharing almost everything. i admit, some days it drives me crazy, but i wouldnt trade it for anything. i love him so much...and i know he loves me too. he such a good boyfriend. ryans pretty cool too. we decorate the house together, and talk about EVERYTHING. hes alot of fun, and i am glad we all decided to live here together. i even love the apartment itself. we're kind of hidden and out of the way, but we're only 5 minutes from kalamazoo and portage. its so great. and EVERYONE delivers out here..as opposed to only hungry howies in mattawan. im so happy out here.